Happy Half-Birthday To Me

I realised yesterday as I was completing forms that it was my "half" birthday and it had somehow creeped up on me without realising. I seem to have a knack for remembering key dates and anniversaries of meeting friends and lovers for the first time but I don't keep track of somethign like a half-birthday that much. I'm aware that February is the midpoint of that current year but no more than that.

I'd been in a foul mood all morning - having a dream about your ex which brings all those old feelings and hurt to the surface doesn't set you up well for the day, yet the realisation of the date actually excited me as it gave me a reason to excuse feeling shit. It wasn't because of him, it was just because I'd reached a signifcant date in my 20-somethingth year. That was all!

In typical fashion I dealt with this by doing what I do best. Making lists and setting myself goals. This is the perfect time to reflect just a little on what what I haven't achieved so far and a lot of what I am going to do for the next 6 months. It's what I do. I list many, many goals and truthfully, not a lot of them get ticked off however I don't usually beat myself up too much about it. "Fine, I didn't do all this stuff in 2008, I'll complete it all in 2009.... in 2010" I think I sometimes worry what the hell I would do with my life if I did complete everything I set up do do but knowing me I'd probably draw up another set of tasks and plans. There's always some language out there I haven't mastered, another dance form I haven't studied etc. However I want to do so much that I could probably live three lifetimes and I still wouldn't get it completed.

But back to now. And the next six months. I have about 50 things I want to achieve in this time and I know it's unrealistic and, as I know all too well, life gets in the way and holds you back. However, here a few things I hope are in store for me February to August:

1. Get decent perm job which pays good money (and therefore in turn I can sort out finances, save, budget etc.)
2. Be more creative - I don't want to go anymore details on this one for the time being but it has to be done.
3. GO TO BRAZIL!!! - I need to get back out there as soon as possible. I NEED people who live there.
4. Do the splits with ease. I can do them now but sometimes I require a LOT of warming up and getting in and out of them ain't a pretty site.
5. Improve my Portuguese skills (and prehaps make a start on learning Spanish properly instead of guessing it all the time) - I guess this ties in my the plans to go to Brazil. I've put too much time and energy into studing Portuguese so far to let it go and I'm bored with this plateu I've reached and want to get past it and reach fluency. Maybe come August I'll be good enough to take the CELPE-Bras exam.

So I think that's plenty to be getting on with for the time being and I still have my dance classes, show rehearsals (my first contemporary dance performance - woo!) as well as plans to get fit and healthy to tide me over too. I awaited with hopefuly excitment for a progress report on this come August.